Day 4/15

THE CLEANSE:
Okay so I've been juicing lemon and apple on this paragone clease, and what has been coming out of me is not ppo. It doesn't look like a parasite either, and it's been rather watery. It's dark black tar-like mucousy stuff. It looks kind of like what those people who do cleases and hold up like some odd feet of this nasty bile that they pooed out, but mine is like an inch of it. It's gross. I guess the combination of the lemon and this cleanse is really losing the stuff on the colon walls and getting the junk out of my body.
I know that is the point of the master clease. The stull looks vile. I do think the parasite are coming out with this junk, because their where bubbles in one poo with the black moucusy stuff
My face is becoming a lot better thankfully. I no longer look like my face is swollen.

I've been listent to dewane sheirff taps about the Holy Spirit and it's amazing. I plan to listen to them everytime I come home. I also feel more connected to the church now. It's seems like I'm not alone anymore. I care about everyone there so much. They truly are my family.

SECRET...
And I have a secret. I do like someone. I wish I didn't because I just want us to be friends. Always good friends. I always tried to ignore him or when I see him walk the other way. But that just made things akward (like I wasn't being a good friend). So yesterday at church (wednesday). I went to the youth class (even though I'm more college-aged and he is in college too.), and he was singing in the front. Sometimes he plays the drums. I sat with Raven, and after worship service he sat next to me and said 'hi'. We normally say hi...Anyway we were basically the last 2 people to leave. His brother was there too. He taught me how to do an allie. He is pretty good at skateboarding. He had to leave to study for his test. So I texted him and said 'do good on the test!' (one exclamation point) and when I was half asleep he texted back and said 'thanks very much!!' two eclamation points. (lol not that it matters lol). The biggest reason I don't want to be his girlfriend....or anyone's girlfriend is because breaking up is horrible. It's like going through a divorce when your not even married. I think it's ridiculous to date someone and then not date them and just like separate. When I was in college, there were this guy and girl and they were always together and then when they broke up it was just really akward talking to either of them. Anyway I hope my crush isn't like that. Actually I'm pretty sure he isn't like that.
I know God is going to use him in a big way. I just hope that we are always friends and that there is nothing akward between us, because he truely is a great friend.

International Jobs

I recently picked up a book from that library that was titled international jobs.
I have been trying to study Japanese, korean and spanish. All 3 languages are interesting, but I plan on learning Japanese the most, because I want to go to Japan and study there.
I don't know what life will bring me, but I'm ready for the ride.

World Minded: Peru (Traveling the World)

This summer I was planning on going to Japan (full ride scholorship) the only thing I had to pay for was the ticket and room and board. I didn't have enough money saved and I ended up not being about to go.
But God's plans are better and bigger then my plans.
My plans where to go to OC and study Japanese there and teach English in Japan. But somehow I ended up in Oklahoma (parents now in Texas) living in my brother's living room and growing closer and closer to God with everyday experience. That have really moved in a better direction. 1st I thought I was going to Japan, but now I'm going to Peru. To a little city outside the bounds of Lima. My current church, River of Life, is going to be building a church there in memorial of Sherlie Spencer's mother and father. Sherlie Spencer is a great person in our church and a great sunday school teacher with lots of experience in the church field. I'm blessed to know her.

At any rate. I found out that Peru has the second largest Japanese community. I'm still studing Japanese on and off and I plan to becom fluent eventually. Hopefully soon. I bet I could have been fluent by now id I really stuck to it and studied everyday...which I've decided I am going to do. God has really blessed me and I'm ready to go for.
I'm really internationally minded now (I've always have been ever sense I was little). I want to visit countries all around the world. I want to travel and see different sights. I want to travel and help the poor and the orphans...those without. I'm bless to have this desire. At any rate there are a lot of things I have to do inorder to travel. I have my passport but I have to get packing a...sap.

It's going to be fun. I can't want to go forward and do what I need to do in my life.
God's grace and blessing and especially favor is all over my life, and I feel sooo loved my Him.

Always trust in Christ, because He truly has your best interests at heart.
I am soo blessed,
Kara