Day 4/15

THE CLEANSE:
Okay so I've been juicing lemon and apple on this paragone clease, and what has been coming out of me is not ppo. It doesn't look like a parasite either, and it's been rather watery. It's dark black tar-like mucousy stuff. It looks kind of like what those people who do cleases and hold up like some odd feet of this nasty bile that they pooed out, but mine is like an inch of it. It's gross. I guess the combination of the lemon and this cleanse is really losing the stuff on the colon walls and getting the junk out of my body.
I know that is the point of the master clease. The stull looks vile. I do think the parasite are coming out with this junk, because their where bubbles in one poo with the black moucusy stuff
My face is becoming a lot better thankfully. I no longer look like my face is swollen.

I've been listent to dewane sheirff taps about the Holy Spirit and it's amazing. I plan to listen to them everytime I come home. I also feel more connected to the church now. It's seems like I'm not alone anymore. I care about everyone there so much. They truly are my family.

SECRET...
And I have a secret. I do like someone. I wish I didn't because I just want us to be friends. Always good friends. I always tried to ignore him or when I see him walk the other way. But that just made things akward (like I wasn't being a good friend). So yesterday at church (wednesday). I went to the youth class (even though I'm more college-aged and he is in college too.), and he was singing in the front. Sometimes he plays the drums. I sat with Raven, and after worship service he sat next to me and said 'hi'. We normally say hi...Anyway we were basically the last 2 people to leave. His brother was there too. He taught me how to do an allie. He is pretty good at skateboarding. He had to leave to study for his test. So I texted him and said 'do good on the test!' (one exclamation point) and when I was half asleep he texted back and said 'thanks very much!!' two eclamation points. (lol not that it matters lol). The biggest reason I don't want to be his girlfriend....or anyone's girlfriend is because breaking up is horrible. It's like going through a divorce when your not even married. I think it's ridiculous to date someone and then not date them and just like separate. When I was in college, there were this guy and girl and they were always together and then when they broke up it was just really akward talking to either of them. Anyway I hope my crush isn't like that. Actually I'm pretty sure he isn't like that.
I know God is going to use him in a big way. I just hope that we are always friends and that there is nothing akward between us, because he truely is a great friend.

International Jobs

I recently picked up a book from that library that was titled international jobs.
I have been trying to study Japanese, korean and spanish. All 3 languages are interesting, but I plan on learning Japanese the most, because I want to go to Japan and study there.
I don't know what life will bring me, but I'm ready for the ride.